Hellooooooo everyone.
Back to school already, eh? How I wish I could hurry up and finish college but it's always like that, right? High school kids want to hurry up and go to college while college students want to hurry up and become part of the work force while working members of the society want to hurry up and become retired.
But then again, everyone wants to go back as well, don't they? I guess all we can do is enjoy the moment and make each day better than the day before.
I say that but I would give my pokemon cards just to go back to high school. xD
Anywho, this entry isn't about school... or it wasn't suppose to be. xD I had to go through one day of NO INTERNET this summer and it almost made me suicidal. Good thing I started to look through old documents I've saved on my computer to pass the time.
I read old instant messaging conversations that at the time I thought was very important and to this day remains very important. Some made me cry, some made me smile. What caught my attention though was a poem I wrote a few years back.
Well, more like an incomplete poem since it had only one stanza. It was slightly emo and a bit conflicting so I thought, hey, let's finish it. I've come to realize that I am NOT poetic person at ALL but I do become obsessed with poems once I start writing one. I don't write when I have too much emotions bottled up in myself nor when I feel "inspired" by something to write.
I write when I'm bored. O__O;
So here is the poem I started out 3 years ago, probably on a bored Tuesday night, which I finished last week. I do not think I have any talent in writing but more than anything, I crave for opinions about this specific poem for reasons even unknown to me. I'll post up a review of this poem in a few days because I don't want my opinion to sway others' opinions but if you have the time, please read this and give me your honest opinion. I don't really want to hear "it was good," or "it was a little weird," but if that is all you can say, I'll gladly accept them as well. xD
Ok... Here it goes... GAH feels soo awkward. xD One last note: this poem isn't about me. I don't think I ever went through these types of feelings and thoughts before so before you recommend me go see a therapist, tell me it's cuz I'm naturally weird. xD
Ok ok ok ok ok... Here it is!
One more hour
Would it be alright with you if I cry?
Is it ok if you don't ask me why?
Your words repeat in my mind again and again,
When did this blindness of mine begin?
Just hold me now as I break down,
Comfort me until I make no sound.
Look in my eyes and smile gently,
Say those words I've longed to hear tenderly.
I want to hear you say I love you,
And please try your best to make it sound true...
Promise me forever and more,
Tell nothing and everything to this heart that can no longer soar.
You're here with me now, warm and caring,
So why does this numbness seem to be overbearing?
I close my eyes and breathe you in,
But it does nothing to stop the coldness that is slowly creeping in.
I open my eyes to see the once clear sky crying,
Water droplets fell on my cheeks, our tears combining.
How many hours did I wait for you, in this sport of ours?
When each minute passed twisted countless of scars.
You're not here.
You were never here.
I want to see you.
I don't see you.
I want to hear you.
I can never hear you.
I want to touch you.
I can no longer feel you.
Hey, can I ask you one last question?
Let my heart and soul have this one satisfaction?
Can I wait for you for one more hour?
Tada!
*quiet*
Anyways! Although I don't want to say anything yet and accidentally change someone's opinion BUTTTTTT I HAVE TO say that there is ONE WORD in this poem that has been bugging the freak out of me but I can't think of anything else that would fit. I also experimented with a lot of different styles so don't kill me! Also, I SUCK at titles. SERIOUSLY.
I'll give you a one-free-drink-in-japan ticket if you give me a comment. =D
Thanks. <3
Ppl are going to kill me for this but Nakaken could use a few more acting lessons. But the weird thing is he can get the dork moments down perfectly. xD
Sad part is it's not just Nakaken but a whole lot of other ppl part of this drama need a few (or a whole lot) more acting lessons. =/
Oh nice! Yuma has made me laugh twice in the past 10 minutes! γIt's no use; I can't find anything to compliment about.γ γI'm sorry. Do you know what you did wrong? No Idea.γ
I hope the ratings for episode 3 will be over 10%. =(
Sorry. I'll write a better post next time. xD
NYC boys cm is on television right now. I like the song but it kinda sounds like 3 songs I already know mixed into one. Same with Akuma na koi. OH well. xD
Here's some purikura (the one in pink)! Gosh, wish me luck with not going home in a week. D:
Oh there went the cm for the Gazette's new CD. Haven't listened to them in a while. And back to Arashi's show. xD
Think back to June, were you in a relationship and with who?
Unfortunately, I don't think I work that fast.
Say you marry the last person you texted, whats your new last name?
[Kotani] .......but ew.
What are some things you do when you're really mad?
Complain to someone. Someone being the unlucky soul that happens to be on facebook at that time.
How's your mood?
Right now, fine. Should get to sleep soon.
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
I can never remember these things... xD But maybe 2 weeks ago..? xD
Honestly, if you could, would you go back and change something in the past 5 months?
Yeah. Like not forgetting my earrings and sunglasses back home. D:
Two hours ago, were you touching a person of the opposite/same sex?
Yes because she was sleeping and hogging up the entire couch. D:
Where did you get the shoes you are wearing?
They're house slippers... =/
Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
There's only 7 more minutes until the day ends and I stayed home the entire day today. xD
What are you listening to right now?
The voices of weird ppl on some messed up show on TV.
What do you feel like doing?
Changing the channel.
Where were you at midnight last night?
At home on the computer. (WOW this sounds extremely boring....D:)
Did anyone yell at you today?
THE STUPID CATS!! ARGHHHH!!!
Are you happier now or three months ago?
NOW. By a lot.
Is there something you're looking forward to this month?
If everything goes well, a live audition.
Are you texting anybody?
I'm a horrible muti-tasker.
Are you a jealous person?
Yes, I believe I am. =D
Has anyone said they love you today?
If they did, I didn't hear it.
Whose car were you in last?
My Japanese mother's car. =D
What's the wallpaper on your cellphone?
Cherries even though I don't care much for them.
What is on your arms right now?
A cardigan... Is that how you spell it?
Where do you think your number 1 is right now?
My number 1 what? O_O
Think back to yesterday, what were you doing around this time?
READING FANFICTION!!!!!! GOSH I'm a freak.
When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
I try not to say things I don't mean.
Do you have feelings for anyone currently?
Oh I don't go a day without thinking about my celebrity crushes. =D
Would you run around a neighborhood at night without a shirt for 500 dollars?
Hells yeah. There's like no one out at night in my neighborhood. =D
What did you do today?
Youtube. Alllllll dayy...
Who is your last text message from?
Miura Haruma.
Shoot, if that was true, I wouldn't be on LJ right now. D: Kotani Junko.
Where was your default picture taken?
I shouldn't have taken this off of facebook. But this default pic is from some manga.
If you were in the hospital would your number one come see you?
Ohhhh... THAT number one. I got it, I got it. I have no number one. DDD:
What do you own with zebra print on it?
Seriously never liked zebra print.
Who was the last person in your bedroom?
Obaa-san.
What's wrong with you right now?
When is there a time when there's nothing wrong with me? D:
What do you think about the last person you kissed?
CHOOOOOOOO KIMAZUI. DDDD: UGH soo freakin awkward. And all he tried to do was kiss me on the cheek and I freaked out.
What did you do this past 4th of july?
Went on facebook. =D
Whats your favorite color?
Blue, then red.
What did you think about before you went to bed last night?
What could happen in August.
Do you have any plans for this weekend?
Nothing yet. =(
Whats the last movie you watched? With who?
Rookies with Momo!
Where is the last person you kissed at this moment?
I didn't kiss him so it doesn't count...?
Will tomorrow be better then today?
Yeah because I'm actually stepping out of the house tomorrow.
Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
EW.
Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden?
Nope because I'm old enough to drink in Japan. =D
Ever kissed a brown eyed and brown haired person?
Doesn't that practically mean asian? But yes.
Are you a player?
No, I'm a pimp. =D
Is there something you want to tell someone?
Always.
What are you excited for?
Next week with meeting up with friends I haven't seen in years!
How often do you wear makeup?
Maybe everyday of the week minus a day or two.
Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I'm pretty sure I have reason to but I've forgotten them all. n.n;
Is something bothering you?
Audition stuff and whether I can make it in time.
Do you like the town you are living in?
It's pretty nice!
Have you ever thrown a cell phone in anger?
I get angry, not stupid.
Does your best friend approve of the last person you kissed?
CRAP did I tell her? @.@
Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
Momo
Do you hate when people smoke around you?
If I don't know them, it annoys the hell outta me.
MAN that was hella boring. I'll find more interesting surveys from now on.
Bye bye! <3
I'm actually in Japan. I've been here for the past month. @.@
Do you forgive me now? xD I'm actually at my volunteer job right now so I can't write for too long.
I just wanted to say I'm still alive (and slightly bored) and hopefully will try to update more often.
Oh and a lot of things on my LJ will be changed because I'm putting this site on my audition application. n.n;
Love from Japan! xD
Seriously.
Continuing...
So I'm really late on the whole Tamamori being part of Gokusen 3 SP and the movie and lets say I didn't have the same reaction as most Tamamori fans...
It seems for this past year, I've been asking WHY?!?!? everytime something happens concerning Tamamori. Those extended fangirl screams, the solos, and now this?
I DON'T GET IT.
Nothing has changed about him. Since his past unpopular self to his now unbelievably popular self. Is it his looks? People like his light hair more than his dark hair? You can't say it's his personality because that hasn't changed for years. Did people JUST start to notice him because he's just been there for such a long time and liked what they saw? If so, =/
I've liked Tamamori since he was on the Ya-Ya-yah show. No, I didn't like him as much as Ya3 but it was always nice to see him on it. I didn't really start fangirling him until 2006. He was not popular AT ALL and I'm guessing that was because nothing about him stood out from the rest. But I liked that about him. I liked it when I found a cute habit or a random smile during a dance because it felt like I found a piece of a treasure. The more I searched and the more pieces of treasure I found helped me find out who Tamamori really was without him annoucing it to the whole world. In a way, it felt like a game. A game I didn't mind playing for years.
No, I do NOT claim myself as Tamamori's # 1 fan. That sounds absolutely ridiculous and like a stalker confession. Pssh. I don't even consider myself part of the top 50. But I do think I'm a good enough fan of his to say that the surge of fangirls in 2008 was very unusual and abnormal. No, I'm not going to pull out an "I liked him before you did!" card but liking him for so many years can't help but make me want to accuse some people of fake-fangirling. To the dungeons with you! xD
To those who started to like Tamamori in 2008, what took you so long in noticing him and why now? And of course I'm not directing this question to those completely new to the Johnny Jr. fandom. I'm asking those who have known of Kis-My-FT.2 and Tamamori for years but never cared about him until now. Ahhh I'm not mad really and I'm just really curious to the answers I would get. Be 100% honest. ^^
Back to the whole Tamamori in Gokusen thing... again, WHY? His first acting role ever and he gets to be a main role in Gokusen and gets a part in a MOVIE as well?
On one hand, I'm happy for him in receiving such an amazing opportunety and can't wait to see him doing something besides performing on Shounen Club but on the other hand, I can't help but feel as if this is too much. Many fans have expressed that they're so proud of him and that he deserves this and that just makes me =/.
Proud? Deserving? Hmm.. I don't know about you guys but I only feel proud for someone or myself when I give my all and entire being into doing something and my efforts being paid off. This is Tamamori's FIRST ROLE. Has he been running around to different auditions, trying to get his big break? Has he even expressed a desire in acting? He didn't deserve this role; it was handed to him. No, I don't feel proud of him. No, I don't think he deserves this role. However, I'm happy for him and hope this opportunety can open an inffinite number of doors and maybe by his 5th role that he auditioned with hundreds of others on the same footing, I will feel proud of him.
To Tamamori Yuta: Surpise me in Gokusen and make me fall in love with you all over again. =)
Ahhhh writing that made me feel better. xD LiveJournal is my asprin when it comes to Johnnys. xD Tamamori, you are one of the most confusing things in my life. I promise I will wack you this summer and like it.
Shout out to my new friend, Shikagi! Whenever you want to talk about Ya-Ya-yah, I'm all ears! Oh and I don't hate Nakajima Yuto. xD I'm actually quite fond of him but like Tamamori, there are some things I don't like about him. But hey, that's the same for all juniors and Johnnys alike. xD Rant to me if you like!
Hopefully I'm not making myself the target for hate from Tamamori fans because of this rant... @___@ Wazato janai yo. Shinjite kudasai. Tamamori ga suki kedo tokidoki ne, chotto nakitai na watashi. Tears of frustration. xD
Minna ogenki de!
Although I tend to forget about my dreams once I wake up, this dream still feels fresh and I still remember most of the details... and it's been bothering me all morning so I just thought writing about it would make me feel better? I don't know but it's worth a shot. xD
Some info before I start: The person I am in my dreams is 100% me. I mean, whatever I do/think/say in my dream is what I would do in real life. I never do anything completely out of my personality and sometimes, that irritates me. >_<; Ok on to the dream.
I don't remember the beginning but somehow I get into a relationship with a very wealthy man a few years my senior and to say the least, I feel very insecure. Seriously, who wouldn't? A HOT man with money, power, and experience (take it however you want it) decided that he wants to be in a relationship with a young no name college student who has nothing to offer except her devotion and love. Corny I know but this isn't one of those "oh but he loves her for her and doesn't care about keeping an image" but it's not as harsh as the opposite... Well, maybe.
Anyways, I think I got clingy. @__@ He doesn't push me away as if he didn't care for me but keeps his distance sometimes. Then THAT day happened. I open the door to his apartment and see him standing up with a bare chest and a few feet away on his bed was a women with the definition of BARE, black hair and tanned skin. I don't remember what it was I was carrying but I dropped it and ran away, heartbroken. I could have lived pass this if that was the end of our relationship because it would've meant that he never cared about me that way and I was right all along but then I wouldn't be writing about it right now.
He ran. After me.
His apartment complex somehow became a maze and I ran as fast as I could, not knowing where I was going but did not have the strength left to stop running and look back. I knew he was behind me, catching up in an alarming rate but I kept running as if my life depended on it. I finally see a door and for some reason told myself that once I get pass this door, it'll all be over. Everything will end. I looked towards the door as if it was my salvation but once again, things couldn't end that easily and nice.
He caught me. Embraced me. And I lost all will for salvation.
I cried in his arms as my knees gave out and he lowered both of us towards the floor. Beyond the emotions of sadness or frustration, I was just utterly confused. Finally able to find my voice, I let out a barely audible whisper.
"Why can't you just let me go?"
"... I'm sorry."
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
That's all he said.
It wasn't an "I'm sorry for cheating on you," nor an "I'm sorry for making you cry." It was an "I'm sorry for making you suffer but I can't let you go. No matter how many tears are shed, how strong the pain, I can't let you go."
Since this was in fact my dream, I knew the meaning behind his cryptic words. In his life of business, corruption, and lust, he needed me. He needed my innocence and purity to have a balance and yet he couldn't give up his other life. He only touched me when it was absolutely necessary in fear that I would become tainted. It was obvious that my love for him completely outweighed his "love" for me but my pain did affect him. My tears caused him pain. My insecurity caused him pain. My wanting to leave everything definitely caused him pain.
And yet we continued as if nothing happened. Fortunately, I did not find him in bed (or next to) with another woman ever again but the distance was still there. My hesitation was still there. And when he was busy one night because of work, my tears were still there. And yet he held my entire being and I never again thought about that door I was so close to but never opened. And probably never will.
Sorry if my dream sounded too much like a fanfic but I couldn't think of any other way of writing it without skipping out on important details and emotions felt. But hey, I suck at writing fanfiction so it might have happened anyways. @__@
The whole point of writing this was because this dream came as a surprise. I personality can never imagine myself in this type of relationship or at least never STAYING in this type of relationship but as I mentioned in the beginning, the person I am in dreams is the same exact person I am when I'm awake. So of course this is bothering me. Ahhhhhh!!!!!! >___<;;
If you can give me a few words that would be much appreciated. I don't expect someone to give an entire evaluation of my dream but an opinion would probably calm the storm in my head. Anything will be fine! Thank you in advance!!!! ^^
- Mood:
confused
Psssh yeah right. I don't even know what I'm doing for dinner tonight. O_O
It's been a LONG time since I last updated. Can't really say I was doing anything productive... To sum up my summer of 2008, it would be "Watched Anime as if it was going out of style." Now I only have 25 more days until another year of University starts. D:
The other day I went to campus because there has been some troubles with my transfer to this University. I waited about a hour (when I was only suppose to wait for no more than 15 minutes) and find out that they made some computer mistake. Now, because of their mistake, I won't be able to sign up for my classes until next week when any decent time classes would be far from my reach. Oh yes... I can imagine going to classes at 7 am and 7 pm... Someone stab me and put me into a coma now. T__T
In other news, I was planning to change how I would update my livejournal. Once I get my recording equipment to work again, I was thinking about making voice updates instead of typed ones... which probably isn't such a bright idea on my side because I won't be able to sound as smart as I am while typing. No deleting/retyping for your voice. T__T Ohh grammar check... I'll miss you. xD
I've been itching to find out what's wrong with my recording system. I thought it was my mic, then my recording program, then my sound card. MAYBE IT'S ALL THREE!?!?! *gasp* I can't deal with that. >___< And I want to SING again!! I want to post up singing clips on youtube for kicks! I wanna see comments with ppl thinking they know what they're talking about and spam about porn sites.
........... ok maybe not but you catch my drift. I just want to try the youtube thing at least once. xD
IN JOHNNY NEWS... I dunno. O__O Wait! Hashimoto Ryousuke secret (but not so secret) date with a H!P girl! I can care less about her name but it's Kanna or something like that right? From the group Cute? I was and never will be a fan of any H!P group and I only have a problem with SOME of them. Anywho, those HQ pictures sure crushed many HashixTakaki fangirls and those who thought he was gay from those purikura he took with a very friendly "Keisuke." Ohohohoho... Zannen deshita ne? Personally, I understand when ppl say that it's only natural for kids their age to go have dates and gfs/bfs and their companies shouldn't punish them for it but come on... They joined their companies knowing what the rules were and they aren't something you can just break and go free. I mean it breaks my heart knowing what happened to Kamei and Funabiki but they broke the rules and received punishment, even if the punishment may have been a bit unreasonable.
But... I guess Hormones > Rules. Even with my many Johnny crushes, I would never make them do something that would jeopardize their job. But that's just me. =____=
Well, this post has gone on long enough and I gave 5 anime and 1 manga waiting for me.
Til we meet again! Mata ne!
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SOMETHING NEW!! BUAHAHAHAHA.... xD Even tho boycottbananas is probably the only one to read this so THIS ONE'S FOR YOU, GIRL! xD
My mic is broken. It's been broken for half a year. Actually, it broke right after I found out Taiyo had resigned from Johnny's Entertainment. Oh the irony. T___T
During these months, my desire to sing has grown so much that at times I feel like risking everything and try to become a singer but I never get to the point of actually sending in my singing clips. >_< Nevertheless, this desire keeps building day by day because for the first time in my life, I can actually see/hear my progress. Screw modesty; I actually think I'm getting better at singing!! For the first time in my life, I'm proud of myself!
What do I do?! What do I do?! What do I do?!?!!??!!?
For starters, typing this isn't going to do me much good... so I'll post up some of my old clips. I NEED FEEDBACK PEOPLE!! IF YOU'RE BORED, JUST LISTEN TO THESE CLIPS FOR ME AND HONESTLY TELL ME YOUR OPINION!! xD
These clips are from my soundclick and they're in order from new-ish to old-ish. Just click "Play hi-fi"
http://www.soundclick.com/bands/page_son
Leah Dizon - Softly (Japanese) Type: Acapella
* Ok... so I hate Leah Dizon. Well, I hate her as a singer and I hate the fact that she has some catchy songs. >__<;; When she first started out, I wished her failure. rofl. xD But now that her Japanese has finally reached a DECENT level, I just don't care what happens to her. xD But anyways, I sang some of this song for kicks. Enjoy. ^^
http://www.soundclick.com/bands/page_son
Kim Ah Joong - Byul (Korean) Type: Acapella
* I sing in Korean as well as Japanese. xD It's a very nice song but the original is much stronger than my version... But that's because my high register was very limited back then. I limited myself to singing songs like lullabies because I thought that was the only way I could sing and sound decent. That's changed now but I still like this clip and really all of these even if they're a bit soft and probably makes you want to sleep. xD
http://www.soundclick.com/bands/page_son
Hikita Kaori - Michiyuki [Ending OST to the anime Loveless] (Japanese) Type: W/ instrumental
* Acapella gets boring after awhile, huh? xD Personally, I thought I could've done this song better and once I figure out what's wrong with my recording system (my mic is not the only thing broken) I'll record this song. But I guess you could hear the difference from this clip and the first two because I recorded this song A LOOONG TIME AGO. So it's not that good. =p
http://www.soundclick.com/bands/page_son
DongBangShinGi/DBSG/DBSK/TVfXQ/THSK/what
* Talk about OLD. xD There's no official instrumental to this song so I made one myself. It's... bad... I only like when I sang "Fly away" the first time. xD
and for kicks:
http://www.soundclick.com/bands/page_son
Makino Yui - You are my love (Japanese) Type: W/ fan-made instrumental
* Hahahahahahahahahahaha... hahaha.. ha.. xDD Ok so this has to be 2-3 years old so I'll sound really young. Also, I didn't have the original mp3 to make the fan-made instrumental so what did I do? Ripped if off the anime. xD So you'll hear sound effects. xD Also, this was the first time I was messing around with my own effects so the echo is... a bit much... xD But I liked how it turned out and it sounds so... anime-ish. xD
So needless to say, I DON'T sound exactly like this anymore. My range has expanded a little to the point I can sing any KAT-TUN song (those boys sing WAYYY TOO HIGH!) My voice has matured (kinda late I know...) and it has gotten much stronger. I promise that when I finally fix my recording problem, I record something with an instrumental. HEY! I'll sing a Johnnys Song!!! Any suggestions? xD
Oh. And also, this isn't all the songs I've recorded. To date, I have 53 clips ranging from male, female, acapella, instrumental (official or made by me), clip, full song, Korean, Japanese, English, songs I played on my flute, and collaborations. I can't say they all sound good tho. =X
Ohhh I hope I was not just dreaming...
Theme: Genki
You would think watching this episode would make you more energetic... instead, I think this had to be one of the most boring shounen club to date. I'm even thinking about deleting it from my database because I almost see it as a waste of space. =/
Going into details later. By the way, where was 1/2 of ABC and 5/7 of Kis-My-Ft. 2? Dream boys?
Another random thing: Does anyone else think that Nakajima Yuto and Nishikido Ryo looked alike when they were younger?? Cuz I do. xD
More random things:
SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE QUESTION? A NEW SONG, DAMNIT.
Oh. Now thinking more into the missing ABC and Kisumai members, if either/both group(s) will debut sometime soon, Shounen Club would be VERY EMPTY. I hate to say this especially since both groups DESERVE to debut but they can't debut until the young juniors make more of a name for themselves. If either or both groups debut in the next year, I would have almost no desire to go to a recording or even download Shounen Club anymore. Sad. =/
Is Butoukan now Yara featuring others? =/ C=Normal (uh.. what?) is a nice song and I'm glad the older M.A.D. members got to dance to this song but uh... Yara didn't have to sing everything. @_@ Oh and Yara's engrish is as bad as Takki's. xDD
Uh... M.A.D.E anyone? Were they an one-time type of group? Maybe they were just announced to cover a few minutes at Hey! Say! JUMP's Tokyo Dome Concert.
I luv the younger M.A.D. members. Their version (with Nozawa) of TOKIO's Feel It was very nice with very good dancing... but their voices... sounds funny. xD More like, some of them have a very older feeling to their voice. Not as in a mature voice but as in older style. Quite interesting. xD But amazing dancing as always.
Funabiki... T__T Kamei... T___T Also, Koki isn't a score keeper anymore?! Awwww... xD
Koyama was funnier when he was in the Ya-Ya-yah show... But I personally hope that Koyama and Nakamaru will continue to be Shounen Club's MCs for muchhhh longerrr. Cuz I think that when they leave and if they're replaced with Heisei MCs, the Showa juniors will even feel more out of place.
I say next guest on Shounen Club should be.... IKUTA TOMAAAAA. And I haven't even seen him in any drama. xD I just know him a lot from Shokura. ^^
Shoon trying to be like Hikaru? Interesting...
Back to the recent Shokura, I would've asked for my money back if I went to that recording. =/
Being in the Johhny fandom.... I know most of us have our favorite boy love. xD Actually, more like everyone has MANY of them. For some reason, I only have one: AKAKAME/AKAME. SCREW OTHER COUPLES. I WANT MY AKAKAME BACK. T___T Second place I guess would be Takki & Tsubasa but eh.
ALL HAIL AKAKAME! *worships her akakame poster* jk. xD But as sentimental and popular the fandom is, I really don't mind if they were to announce someday they are gay for each other even though I've had major crushes on both. >___<;
The reason I don't like other couples in Johhnys because they're younger than me or their closeness can't beat the closeness Akakame had during their Junior days. T__T
Idea for an Akakame fanfic? A girl (ME. XD) writes a fanfic about them using very specific real details and real dates and incorporates what she thinks their feelings wereFanfic gets so popular not only with english speaking fans but also Japanese fans (fanfic translated in Japanese). Both Kamenashi and Akanishi find the fanfic one day and both read it and realize everything she was writing was true (but neither of them knew if the other knew of the fanfic). Awkward moments, awkward moments, awkward moments. She gets into a writer's block and this is when the Akakame relationship...? She finally writes the last chapter that was set for the future where Akakame are suppose to....? Both Akanishi and Kamenashi go to that spot at the exact time written just for kicks and...?. xD At that exact moment, the writer is...?. xD
I know. I sound like I'm on crack. But if anyone feels like reading a fanfic like that, tell me because I might just write it. But I just ruined a lot of good stuff so I'm going to delete half of what I just wrote. xD So yes. It's writing a fanfic about someone writing a fanfic but it's not as dumb as that. xD
Man... Every time I say I'll write a short post, it always turns out wayy longer than expected. I hope someone reads this. T_T I write things 1/2 for my enjoyment and 1/2 for people's opinion. Talking to yourself is sad. =/
It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
but there's something about us I want to say
cuz there's something between us anyway
I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
but there's something about us I've got to do
some kind of secert I will share with you
I need you more than anything in my life...
I want you more than anything in my life...
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life...
...
I love you more than anyone in my life...
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